update from the campsite

We are currently in Zion National Park, Utah with myself, my husband, the 3 boys, my aunt her son her daughter, my grandparents, my parents..and thats it. Talk about a family vacation. It is sooo beautiful here even if we are all shoved in various campers and smell a little..we're camping right?? Yesterday we went hiking through the Narrows which is a very long hike between two very tAall mountains. I took lots of pictures so I'll post them when I return home. Anyway, my grandpa carried little Sarah in a backpack all down and up the canyon..what a stud. Today we are going to the emerald lakes and possibly tubing doen the river..Fun. keep you posted.

Mommy's little tiger Cub

andrew as a new Tiger cub..entering the world of boy scouts and the picture that made his mother go on a diet...holy crap what have I became???

Colin and Andrew getting ready for Boy scout intiation

To Nurse or not to nurse..that is the question????!!!

Started school online last night..again..Didn't I graduate already? Oh yeah..glutton for punishment because I decided to get my RN and be a nurse instead of an English Teacher..I think. I am very confused on this whole decision and the class I'm taking over the summer is going to have to make my decision for me. Do I go on and get my Masters/credential in Education or do I jump ship and get my RN? So many pros and cons to both that I am having the damnedest (spelling..??oh well don't care) making up my mind. They each will require the same amount of time, although the nursing program will be more intense and to be honest I feel a little stupid going back for all the science stuff. Its so hard when you are a mother because every decision you make effects so many people and you always want to try and make the best one for everyone involved. So we'll see what happens this summer as I am planning to pray about it and hope that God gives me some clarity on the issue..stay tuned..

Wordless Wednesday

Nicholas, last summer when he discovered pudding. He loves pudding and this was one of the first things he learned to feed himself. I guess he just fed himself to exhaustion. Too cute..

A Little inspiration anyone??

sometimes I don't post because I get to caught up in reading everyone elses good stuff that I figure, what can I possibly write. Personally, I think my days are pretty boring. I don't home school (though I do have lots of respect for those who do), my kids aren't suffering any life threatening diseases..they are all healthy..Of course this isn't to say that I never have any issues or any complaints..see a few previous posts about that one..I just try to stay as positive as possible. I Love QUOTES especially ones that make you really think as I am what I like to call a 'word junkie" I love beautiful language and when someone can paint a picture vividly in my head..OH I love that! Helen Keller is one of my favorite historical people because she overcame SO many obstacles to achieve what so many take for granted.. normalcy.. communication.. relationships. She was amazing!
When one door of happiness closes, another opens; but often we look so long at that closed door that we do not see the one which has been opened for us. Helen Keller
this makes me think so much about many of the parents that i have come in contact with over the last few years. some of them are so upbeat and hopeful, others are so downtrodden and beat up. Finding out your child is "special" is never easy and each of us go through our own grieving process, but it is a grieving that we will go through time and time again as different milestones pass. This year, my special guy, Nicholas will enter Kindergarten. He is my last baby, my youngest boy and I'm excited but I'd be lying if I said that a part of me wasn't a little jealous that the other two neighborhood kids who are his same age are going off to kindergarten, but a 'normal" kinder class. I'm sad a little, this is yet a another milestone where I will go through another grieving process. This is an example of that door of happiness that closed..however I can see that other door of happiness just right to the left..through this door I see all he HAS accomplished and how much better and stronger of a person I have become because of it. I never thought he'd walk..He did and now he runs and climbs and jumps..I never thought he'd communicate and now he's starting to sign.. He loves me insanely, hugs me, kisses me and is truly my biggest fan. I am such a better mother because of him and my other boys will be greater, more compassionate men because of him too. See..there is always something good to find as long as one never loses HOPE! Stay tuned for Nicholas' big journey to kindergarten...

the Big 3-0! AHHHHHHH

okay..it's here the big 30! Am I ready..no but heck its just a number right?? I still have so much more in life to accomplish and I am kind of excited to see what God has in store for me for the next 30 years. I thought about making a list of all the things I want to accomplish in the next 5 years, 10 years, etc..but then I started thinking..all I want is my 3 boys to grow up to be awesome men who love God and treat others with kindness. I want them to be happy and healthy and humble. Sure I love to learn to ski and surf and do a triathalon and maybe start a school for Deaf autistic Children..but really my mission here is to be a good mommy. So tonight I played baseball in the backyard even though the sun was going down and I could barely see the ball..and I hit my son in the mouth..whoops..then I played the playstation for Nicholas because he loves to watch the game on the screen and just jumps and flaps and laughs..then I forced myself to read some more diary of a Wimpy Kid for Isaiah (which by the way is very funny). Sooo, now all my little dudes are asleep and I am here doing some blogging and feeling better. I really need to blog more but sometimes I just get too involved reading everyone elses that I forget to post on mine..oopsy.okay. so for my birthday I am going to go to work, do laundry and clean the house.oh and cook and clean for everyone..wipe some butts and most likely a whole lotta pee off the seat..I detest PEE on the SEAT! this is me and this is what I do and you know what.. I love it and I wouldn't have it anyway else.. oh and I will be eating pinkberry instead of cake as I am determined to NOT go into my 30's as round and as pudgy as I currently am..he he he

Some new thoughts on the big 30!

Okay so in 3 days I'll be thirty. Not ready..and feeling a little scared and panicked about it. I know I have 3 kids, a husband and a house, and so I should be content to be thirty. but I'm not! I feel like I should be further along in life, more educated, etc. Life is flying by and I just don't wanna miss anything..Stay tuned on more thoughts of turning 30..I need to go to bed!

Not me Monday!

Haven't blogged in a while so..here goes..
I didn't overdraw my checking account by a lot becuase I used the wrong debit card..no not me I'm on top of it.
I didn't let my deaf/autistic son play the playstation for an hour and a half while I laid on the couch..nope not me...
I'm not up at 1 am in the morning because of the stress and guilt of not me #1..nope not me..i'm a supermom..
I'm not wondering what the going rate for blood is???nope not me..
i'm not even considering selling my own eggs to find a good therapist/school for son..nope not me..
While this may sound like I'm going looney..don't worry..not yet..nope not me. LOL